"They only want you when you're seventeen.
When you're twenty-one, you're no fun."
This past year has seen more change than so many before it. I've met new people. Some of them I'm lucky enough to call my friends. I've done new things. Some of them positive, all of them something to learn and grow from. And throughout it I've tried to nurture the constants in my life - old friends, family, and study.
It's hard to let go of old habits. Even though you know that they were holding you back. The easy thing to do is wallow in your unhappiness. Yes, change is scary. And you'll probably never be ready for it. But it will happen eventually. And it will make you a better person. For me, changing myself and my circumstances has definitely been a conscious effort. After getting comfortable with being unsatisfied I've had to put myself out there, and the fear of rejection was something that had always stunted my growth as a person.
As I'm writing this, I am twenty-one years and one month old, and things are really looking up. Friends, family, study, jobs - everything has improved ten fold since this time last year. Why? Because I took a chance on myself and I tried. Like really, really tried hard to improve so many aspects of my life. Sure, there's a long way to go until I reach my highest heights, but I feel as though I've made a tangible start. This is the first time I properly feel as though I am my own woman. And at the moment, and I hope forever, I'm having a lot of fun being Izzy. I am woman, hear me